I did not know you existed.
I turned away at the thought.
If you were there, you were small and weak.
I depised you for your woundedness.
When you cried for attention I shut you out.
Then you began affecting my adult life and I hated you.
How dare you disrupt me now?
Your time was past years ago.
But you wouldn't give up, howling brat.
Making me dizzy, making me anxious.
Tugging at my emotional skirts,
ripping loose the hem.
When I couldn't shut you out,
I faced you coldly.
I blasted you with anger.
You wreaked more havoc in my life.
Desperate to silence your bawling,
I faced you again in detachment.
You cowered in the dirt,
tear-stained face turned away.
And I felt pity for you.
And I felt compassion.
And I felt love.
And then you were in my arms.
Copyright 1997